Hmm...streak of bad luck...really bad luck comes in my way...but I wont feel upset because I control my destiny.

So long never blog le...because very lazy. Today is really some fucked up day...start of the day got bad dream...then got people want fuck me up but I always won't give in to unreasonable shit...i can be more unreasonable. Nevermind what people saying behind my back but once my tolerance is finished...people normally wish they never messed with me.

Pei Mark go see doctor in the afternoon...wait so long...almost slept in the clinic...then we went to Enn house originally wanna play MH...end up my PSP spoil le...sry my dear PSP...Im giving you up...did alot of fun things at his house as usual...went out to sell my PSP le...bought my handphone earpiece finally...for some reason I always lose my earpiece...alot of times le...

Hmm actually yesterday was more fun la...first half of the day went to school then to Nisa's house to do something special for our presentation...wow I love her house so much...way way way better than mine, and is at Sengkang...quite a good place. Then came back to tampines...met Enn and Mark take photo first...then we went to Bedok 85...ate a porridge and shared a $8 oyster ommelette. Then we chase the bus back like retards....wahahas...somehow with them I can do the most crazy things!

Went back to tampines we go slack at playground and we go trick little kids la...first I throw their stones away...den I end up doing magic...wow..i make my slipper disappear....i throw stone den all disappear....ok lah...nowadays de kids are too dumb...amazed by some stupid tricks...After that we dance at the playground...WTFBBQ....so shiok lah....

Tomorrow is Marketing presentation...put so much effort in...hope tomorrow no one will provoke me...I will beat people de...not like I never do before...

~EnD~

I wonder how long I can take this!...I can't sleep...and even when I do fall asleep I'll have nightmares...it is a terrible feeling which I cannot comprehend. This caused my whole day to be so down...keep spacing out...

Tuesday is my start of school week...first lesson is ICCM...the teacher showed two videos...but I couldn't concentrate...if the video is 14 mins I just stare at the wall for 14 mins...if the video is 45 mins I stare...awhile...when to sleep. While everyone is busy filling in the blanks I kept thinking about something...

For tutorial...lucky I was occupied...new tutor but end up never listen to anything...stupid lah me..why am I being affected like this...normally I wont de...this time...aiya...

Sorry to some people...just being annoyed easily today...and most probably for quite some time...try not to annoy me ok...I don't know what I will do...

Now trying to do homework...but I think will end up either giving some crappy answer or not doing...exams are coming...I need to bulk up...trying to..T.T

~EnD~

Thinking about this past year it is really tough...all the things that happened to me I really have endured. I realised alot of things seen alot of truths...even the harshiest discisions I have made...never regretted it. I insist of standing by my principles, the very same principles which I threw aside for one whole year...I chose to take it back to my side.

I have also been through alot of low points...many times close to breaking down...by I always stood up...many true friends were with me...many whom sacrifise time and effort to give me strength.

Studying is really one of the things I hate the most...don't understand why I endure through one whole year of siao studying for that nice nice result which does not seem to make me happy. Ok it will make me happy for awhile... but all the things in life i'll miss because of it...not worth it.

Now I think I am really going to breakdown soon...this time I really have no more power to stand up...I really think I am gonna stay there all my life...broken...I have never felt so down...not even going out having fun helps...time to time I will think alot of things..negative things...no-one can pull me back up...this is what I am feeling...tomorrow is like darkness to me...feel like just sleeping and never wake up...

Hope we can all feel better...its all hoping...can it really happen??

~EnD~

Wow...school week passed so fast...but I think exams are upcoming faster!! See got mood study then say hahas...

Today woke up feeling dizzy...I always have those dreams where I feel awake...yet I cannot seem to wake up...I try so hard to open my eyes...I tried so hard to move my limbs but it just wont work!...Then finally you woke up...it was all a dream eh??...but why does it happened so often!?

Watched TV all the way til afternoon...play psp awhile until around 3...then went out to settle my computer thing...zzz that guy say got problem here got problem there...kpkb nia...then have to change harddisk also...so expensive sia!...Another thing is..confirm going to Japan during September...finally hahas...dream country here I come...heck care H1N1...

Short post today because very uneventful...beside my mum so amazed by one of my sister's birthday present which consists of 3-5 pieces of board which is filled with birthday wishes and her photo...hahas...quite nice...

By the way...somebody not angry with me ler...so happy...

~EnD~

Don't know why ah...secondary school everyday late I no feeling...Poly I late only start to kan chiong. Today woke up 15 mins late...I thought no big deal so I slowly prepare...around 7am then leave house...jialat...if I can reach on time at 8am I god! Somemore the bus move so freaking slow...and so many people come up...reach classroom at 8.40am like that. Tutorial I got do lor...until question 4...reach class just nice going through question 4...so zai...

After the lesson, slack at library for awhile then see lecture hall sien diao...meeting Ah ming at 130pm...so go clubroom wait...so freaking cold that my hands so stiff while playing psp. Finally he came and we went to Yishun. So suay lah...reach Yishun rain...then my super slippery slippers like iceskating on the road...Thank ah ming treat me Wanton Noodle Upsize...it was nice...second time eating it...

Ah ming needed MC to cover the ICA he missed in the morning so we headed to polyclinic...was told that it is near safra...Customer service say take 812 four stops...loss count, lucky Ah ming got count plus we saw the Safra. Now polyclinic so strict...check temperature...ask questions then let us in. Ah ming got 2550...at first thought very fast...then wait like so long...finally his turn go in...I wait outside lor...Then he tell me that doctor don't know say what want refer to what..need go another counter...to our amaze, doctor wire sot diao want him go hospital A&E...come on lah...he look so normal where got want suicide!...crazy. Ah ming quarrel with the nurse awhile then just nice got one auxillary police go in the office...guess what...become his problem...hais no matter how much ah ming explain...they don't want give MC...insist on going A&E. Bo bian we go out...

I clever lah...suggest him use the referral letter as MC...then bluff PEM say no MC given only got A&E letter...sound like emergency so maybe will work? We went to Northpoint slack...he want play arcade so we went up...watched him play this new shooting game called Razing Storm. Its about this alpha army platoon shooting enemies with robots and wierd chiongsters...he finish the game easily..although he got a rank 11...means 10 people score higher than him...somemore alot of kaypos behind watching him play...paiseh sia...

Parted ways and I went to take bus 969 home. On the bus saw this girl t-shirt "ABCDEFG = A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl" than "GFEDCBA = Girl Forget Everything Done, Catches new Boy Again"...lolx...wonder if its really so true in reallife...recently keep seeing girls getting so depressed after being dumped...although I know of a guy who kena cheated!...that girl ah...got boifren still want go out play with other guy's feelings...deserve to die and rot in hell!...

Mentoring is cancelled...I think due to H1N1 ba...hais...so many weeks le...hope next week get to continue...no need waste my sms sia!

~EnD~

Crap...ended up couldn't sleep all night..first is because I not used to the timing...then got other matters bugging me...Well..have to wake up at 8am after all...took the everlasting super duper long and boring 72 bus ride to school...

First thing I did when I reached was to print the script for Bus Law presentation...zzz..stupid printing shop encrypted the file...thus bo bian go to lecture first...zzz really got test...never study at all...confirm fail liao...

Changed into my formal wear...then headed to find the group to prepare...we were supposed to be the first...but because got latecomers ended up second...then me, Cindy and April just left straight after the presentation...cool...slacked at mac til around 3...then attend ESSR lecture...boring til want drop...afterwhich go fit the TEP jacket before heading to clubroom wait for Junrong and Gary.

Finally they all reached at around 530...so went to play badminton...(changed again to sports attire)...too long never play...body cannot catch up...plus never eat and sleep enough...super cui after playing...blow awhile aircon go mac eat dinner...finally got garlic chilli wee~....then duno why took 72 instead...lucky got someone pei me on the journey...all the way to my doorstep hahas...<3

Don't feel like doing homework...wanna sleep le...sorry tml de tutors...too bad im lazy XP

~EnD~

Time passes so fast, the three weeks without school ended today. Actually today should already start school le...but somehow because I do not have any lessons on Monday so today considered holiday lor. Nowadays always sleep and sleep...until something make me wake up...

Afternoon very very bored...don't feel like doing anything that type of bored...go online surf awhile...sien...watch video awhile...also sien...chat on phone til 3+...then started doing abit of project...do do do...buay tahan go sleep ler...phonecall wake me up 2 times..first one is for the Nestle competition...gave up on that long ago hahas....then another is Evan call for cross cultural notes or something...I didn't know tomorrow got test sia...die liao...good luck...bless me...whatever!

Enn just came back from Malaysia so meet to eat lor...at first cannot find anything we want to eat...end up deciding to go eat Pastamania! Mark was working...but Sunhe was the one giving me discount. Ate Alfredo as well as my favorite cream of chicken soup!...It just tasted so good...too bad only available on Monday. Then we went to the Hokkaido Fair below walk walk and then go T1 bought the meesua share...then to Century Square...zzz saw my sister and her friends...got 2 guys inside...don't know who...better not anyhow or Ill kill you, throw you down 20 storeys...then feed your corpses to dogs!

Walked home from interchange...then the world most urgent thing came...more urgent then girls de period...zzz wanna shit so badly...rush up to Enn's house...Ahhhhhhh never felt so shiok before...

Shit end up going home abit late...sorry to you waiting for me...I am realli realli sorry...

Right!...tomorrow is first school day after so long...got presentation and test siao liao!....amen to me liao!

~EnD~

Wow...my birthday is yesterday...that makes me 1 year closer to death...YAY! The day started very nicely....with an alarm clock which woke me up after 3 hours of sleep...shouldn't play too much psp...so I drag my about-to-die body around the house...then went to interchange to fetch the people who are coming...

Gary reached first...alone...so we sat down have a bit of chat...then he wanted to drink bubble tea...I immediately rejected his sweettalk request and brought him to T1 for Each-a-cup!...which is like so much nicer lah!...then walk around T1 talking about pranks and stuffs...before Vanessa, Shiyun and Charmaine arrived.

Brought them to my house...where they slacked around in my room...play poker, computer...finding things...eating...then my "birthday bash" came...left arm still hurts until now hahas...and also my right arm...kena "tattooed" by Shiyun...so many bruises lolx...nice sia...Mark suddenly came....so let him join in with his craps hahas...

Then felt tired...so went to sleep...beside Vanessa on the bed....while the rest playing psp or computer...hahas...she slept pass the time they wanted to leave...then ended up staying more...she sleep hor...keep rolling around...kick me...end up I never sleep hahas....then after she woke up, she play blackjack...make so much noise hahas...then Mark and Shiyun don't know why keep argueing with each other lah...chao ah bang chao ah lian scold scold scold...lolx...funny sia...

Finally they finish their card game....then Vanessa pass me my "present"...thank you so much...I really love it...

So everyone left at 6pm...met enn under my block and together took bus to interchange. Me Mark and Enn were going to this place called La Villa for dinner...so we took mrt to city hall and took bus to somewhere near Great World City. The ambience of the place is nice...is like a high class restaurant with a bar...wow...we got a seat near the outside...


Being extra having a "necktie"...Mark you rocks man...will always be my BF...(Best friend!)

We ordered the free flow grill thingy...and a bottle of expensive red wine...zzz...Mark drank a very tiny amount while we two settled the rest. Mark's sister came midway and chatted with us...she is a nice lady...

The grill was...ah...very nice...but very sick...what i mean?...when the first plate came...wow...they have clams, sotong, beef, chicken, mutton, pork, salmon, codfish, tuna in quite moderate portions...then the second plate came...as it was freeflow, we could get as much as we wanted....guess what...no one went pass the second plate...because the moment I see meat...i am full!


The very sick plate of meat!....but the lamp chop seriously is stellar!



Red wine YAAAAM SENG!



A fact about red wine...from Enn...while I was chionging it down..."You know hor...red wine cannot chiong down de..."...My reply after I finished the red wine was...O red wine....cannot chiong down ar...-.-'''....



After the terrifying second plate...we slacked outside the bar area...singing, chatting, cursing hahas...got alot of Angmohs...so wont understand...they seemed to appreciate the sound-like-vulgarities song...woot!...



Thank you Vincent (Mark's sister's boyfriend) for giving me a glass of cranberry vodka for my birthday!...thanks alot!...it is really very nice!



Met Derek at Cityhall platform then we headed back to Tampines wanted to catch a midnight movie...yay Transformers!....got the 3rd row from the front because we were late....and hell my neck hurts (for many reasons)...the movie was nice...very nice...



After that it was already 3am...Derek do not have bus to go home...so we decided to slack til morning!....i mean early morning....hahas...Enn headed home first because he needed to get ready for malaysia trip...hope he don't come back with H1N1...then we chat for 3 hours til 6am! Chatted about alot of crappy stuff...don't feel bored de everytime with Mark can chat sibei long and maybe still on only 1 topic hahas...we chatted about "little miss green", school life...etc...hahas...then we went for Mac for breakfast before heading home for sleep...



Mark paid for alot of things...thanks for the wonderful birthday you gave me....yours is coming and I will make sure it is nice for you too!....



Thank those who wished me...and thanks for the presents...especially my sis...gave me a shirt which is soooo nice!



~EnD~

Really really suay to the core...see, tasted, smelt, drank blood today...it still hurts!...ouch!

Hais...this few days don't know why...everyday kena waken up by some stupid things...tuesday woken by NYP call, Wednesday woken by alarm go do project, thursday kena woken up by some noise from outside...boom...today...my phone drop on my head...at around 10...so suay!

Have to bring my CPU out for inspection because it doesn't read my monitor cable...Mark came along...first he wanted those little miss balls...so I brought down...then he wanted to put the figures inside....so I went up...throw down hahas...a few kids when to snatch it...lolx...then I came down....

Mark: Cheebye why you throw down!

Then we head off to the computer shop....midway...I tired so I let mark take awhile...then while he passing back to me...zzz...i didn't hold properly...the edge of the CPU langa my right lower lip cause it to kena pierce by my teeth...OUCH....bleeding profusely...but I just drank the blood down...now left an ugly wound on my lip...zzz

Eat what also pain....drink what also pain...then after that swollen wor...now the wound look like a unhappy look...smiling downwards...owow....well...slacked the whole afternoon off...playing throw ball...psp...juggling...napping on the seats...

Seems like a mini carnival is happening at St 81...there is the DUNK MACHINE!!...with just an ugly malay girl waiting for you to drop her in the water...eee....but I think alot of tiko pei there...watching...such a buang girl...

As usual there is the giant balloon mouse for kids to go inside the stomach have fun...and the totally retarded "fun" rides...as well as the human floating ball game all there in one place....but hor...only kids playing ba...adults all look, laugh...walk off...

Hais...tomorrow birthday...take 1 day rest...then the rest of the days will be project chionging...hais...

~EnD~

Finally....hair become abit shorter again...this time I did not say I want leave it long...so the hairstylist just freestyle cut hahas....not so nice...but nevermind...grow longer abit will nice lah...

Today really alot of things....first go cut hair...then go play LAN...then go buy thing...then walk here walk there!...woo...whole day can pass so fast like that! Crazy lah me...go splurt out a lot of ribena on one of the wall of tampines one....got this very nice "spray paint" effect....then go sweettalk auntie give extra of the pan fry pau!...wooohooo...

Already knew one of my birthday presents....a badminton racket!....been wanting to have one since my spoilt....finally...thanks to all who chipped in for it! I don't know how it looks like yet...but I will treasure it!...now I cn really go badminton with a racket of my own!

Hais...Mr Chan say cannot have mentoring this week....the school is closed...wow....don't know what CDAC thing....hahas...another break from mentoring I guess...being president is stressful!...sure hope I can throw the load to someone else...

Well today is a great day...for me...not so good for many others but...hehe...wadever...

~EnD~